Staring at the neoprint. This is my MSN nick currently.

Was talking to Wai Ting online just now, and she asked me about my nick.. In the end, had to ask for a change of topic. Talking about the "her" in my MSN nick will only worsen the feeling.

*****

Anyway, why am I so emo -.-"

Maybe because it's so boring in office.. nothing to do... I'm currently uploading pictures and chatting online. I've gotten sick of manga ( for now.. )... and is doing something to perk myself up! ( like blogging.. )

Hell.. it's friday. Lots of activity awaits me! Weekend is here! I should be GLAD! Why am i emo-ing to myself in my office cubicle ( yeah yeah yeah -.- )..

Oh, speaking of friday. I can so totally understand how a 9-5 worker feels now ( except, they have work while i come to office to do nothing ).

How they run off right on time at 12pm for lunch and reporting back to work later then they should ( 1pm )... How everything miraculously disappears from their desk at 6pm and off they goes -.-"...

It's generally like a big secondary school here. Really.

So yes. Those looking for updates of shanghai.. I'm still uploading pictures! Ahhhh~! I can only upload 5 by 5 at a time ( dunno why la. The other options where i can upload more ALWAYS fails. KNS! ).. and i'm only 1/4 done >.<...

Haiz.. Maybe.. i'll do a part 1 first.. ahhh.. depends on my mood! :)...

Till the next entry then!





"If faith is what you need, i'll give you mine..."
r3gular.

Labels: Random Rantings.., Shanghai

Written @ 4:16 PM

Did you ever had dreams... and you remember very clearly what it was about..?

How about having a really really bad dream... and woke up due to shock.. after which, the images from the dream stays in your mind and refuses to go away?

I had lots of such dreams. The moment i stepped out of my comfort zone - Singapore.

I... can't explain it. Is my mind telling me i was going to lose those things? Is things gonna have a 360 degree after these 6 months? 6 months isn't a very long time, but it isn't a very short time either!

I'm.. afraid.. No matter how nonchalant i may act. I'm afraid to lose the things i own now. I'm afraid to lose the things i desire.

These 6 months. A trial...?

I dreamt.. of lots of things.

Like... her.

Though she not mine, she do ( after having the dream, i realised.. ) play an important part in my life now. Have i fallen in love?

I see her... in my dreams. Looking guilty-ly at me. Along with her was another guy. They.... were holding hands. She looked at me with reddening eyes... and turned into his embrace. What i'm disturbed was... who the guy was.

Why do i dream of them both together? Does it mean anything?

***

I awoke from the dream. Terrified. Really terrified..

I looked around, the rest in the train cabin were all fast asleep. I sat up and hugged my knees.

"Is this going to happen?" I asked myself.

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...
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I got into real serious thoughts. I thought of lots of things. I missed her... even more then anyone else. Finally, i asked myself.

"Do you regret going for this 6 months attachment?".

My answer...? I don't.

What can i do now? Besides feeling powerless and sad for 6 months?

Might as well, take things as it goes.

******

I had lots of dreams. This is the one which leaves me with the most impression though. Sometimes in the night, i'll still think of the dream.. but shrug it off in the end. I made a decision. I'll bear the consequence.

Oh well. I'm typing now in office. House's connection is still screwed... so i can't really blog much. With regards to my trip.. I'm still keeping track! I do need to upload pictures though. Help! I have TONS of pictures!!! >.<>.<

"If faith is what you need, i'll give you mine..."
r3gular.

Labels: Random Rantings.., Shanghai

Written @ 2:58 PM

I've switched back to blogger. Damn wordpress was banned in china i think. So, i'll be reverting back to blogger for the time being, after going back to sg, i'll import the whole chunk back to wordpress. Shouldn't be a problem.

I've not blogged for ages! I got a hell lot of pictures, one whole freaking chunk of text to blog ( i've been taking notes and stuff... documenting the things i do so as to make blogging more convenient... )... Now, i need to upload the pictures!

I'm currently at work at my assigned company. Just came back from a lunch treat from my boss! ( not really direct boss, but he's quite high up... ).. That boss is Singaporean! Very friendly! Muahahha!

And right next to my laptop now, a cup of caramel frappuccino... also courtesy of my boss. Thanks Jefferson! :)..

So yeah. I know i need to blog real soon ( things are piling up and i'll get lazy. I know i know! )..

My broadband's gonna be up tomorrow.. so i hope i can update by then!

Catch ya guys later! :)

"If faith is what you need, i'll give you mine..."
r3gular.

Labels: Random Rantings..

Written @ 1:28 PM

I've shifted guys.

Will no longer be updating here! Think i'll just let the blog sit here ba..

CLICK HERE to go to my new site ba.

Cya guys there!

"If faith is what you need, i'll give you mine..."
r3gular.

Written @ 7:48 AM

I'm just trying to show concern. That hard?

I don't like to be compared with the rest.

Ahhhh.. Didn't begin the day with very good mood to start with.

Slept at 7am, woke up at 2.40pm. Freaking hungry, jio-ed princess down to makan.

Came back home after lunch to slack for a while, went to mac study in the evening.

Was in a very foul mood when i went over to mac, because i lose my calculator. You know, life likes to screw us up like this. Sometimes, simple things like losing your calculator the day before your exams can get us VERY irritated. I searched high and low for that god damn calculator but couldn't find it.

Hate it when things go missing and non of my family members say they saw it. KNN. If it wasn't me, the calculator got legs ah? Cfm a few days later they will "oh! this is your's ah? I dunno it's your's ma.." that kind of crappy shit stunt.

Whatever.

Went to mac and did intensive studying for 2 hours. Productive 2 hours. I almost complete the whole CMA syllabus.

Went home and saw the stars in the sky. My mood changed immediately - Which got me thinking. I'm actually very easy to be happy. Give me a good enough telescope, good weather and clear sky. I'll be happy for the whole night.

Ahhh. Came home and gamed a while.. proceeded to study, only to be slapped right in the face ( i don't feel like explaining. )

Good luck to those taking results tml.

If you don't tell me, i won't ask.

"If faith is what you need, i'll give you mine..."
r3gular.

Labels: Random Rantings..

Written @ 11:39 PM

I'm gonna study.

Before all my friends starts to...

1) WOW! Eat wrong medicine?
2) WTF. You okay Robin?
3) WOOHOO! TIO 4D THIS WEDNESDAY LIAO!
4) *Gives me the skeptical look*

.. may i remind you guys ( and as well as myself ) that i do have something to account to myself.

I have to break my 2.875.

And judging from my performance project wise. I think i'll have a problem hitting GPA 3 or above again this freaking semester.

You know how people often exaggerate so as not to let themselves have very high hopes for the results, but this is not exaggeration.

Judging from how my IPT project failed to show more then 40% of the project to my teacher.... judging from the fact that for my first BSD paper, i scored 50/100... and for the second paper, i walked out of the exam room after 1 hour when it's a one and a half hour paper. ( Not i hero, is i really dunno what can i fill in. )

And so, i'll need to work especially hard for the written paper. Which means mugging - which is something all my friends who knows me, knows that i hate.

But well, that's the education system of singapore, to judge someone through his damn qualifications.

Whatever. I have to study. And i'm gonna start.

I'll most probably blog more often ( blogging somewhat helps me to destress... probably due to all the profanities thrown around by me. Ha! ) during the time i study...

I'll try hard not to log in to CBB as often.. and guys from CBB, if you happen to see me there, do me a favour. Ask me to go and study. LOL! ( Though i may not listen -.-.... )...

Ok. Time isn't very early. I shall start some light mugging today.

"If faith is what you need, i'll give you mine..."
r3gular.

Labels: Random Rantings..

Written @ 10:01 PM

Woohoo!

Finally a day that i can stay at home and do housekeeping! ( Can't believe it's coming from me -.-.. )

Purposely didn't want to have anything on today ( except acer serviceman coming to fix my labby.. this one can't be helped what! ) so i can finally get my stuff done.. and then, full time student = Robin :)...

Was actually supposed to go Area 19 AGM for NPCC, but cannot make it la. The acer person came at 9+.. After finishing.. around 10+.. meeting starts at 10 lei!... So never go..

Ended up, Stayed at home and started Operation: Throw!



"If faith is what you need, i'll give you mine..."
r3gular.

Labels: Random Rantings..

Written @ 7:21 PM

I feel liberated.

Finally, all the project out of the way. ( Though i screwed up my last project.. )...

Whatever it is, i don't care anymore. To hell with projects.

Time to study.

"If faith is what you need, i'll give you mine..."
r3gular.

Labels: Random Rantings..

Written @ 12:16 AM